Saturday 26 March 2011

thanks god!^^

finally my nervousness about spm result is now gone... tyme ambik result pnya lh kin sajuk...huuu lmbt lgi 2 turn maw ambik 2 slip keputusan...hmm excited feelling pn ada jga tyme maw ambik result 2 tp kna tngalam olh perasaan nervous yg teramat sngt...huuuu like a crazy person jak tyme 2....hehe but still can control my self...heeee welll i got to meet all my classmate and my friends that i didn't meet for a long tyme...and some of them obviously had some changes in their look....esspecially on their size...haha...dont be mad^^ but its true...heeee well go back to the story...hmmm some of my friends already know their result by checking through sms...hmmm n their result kin sya tMbah nervous ne sbb smua nya tnggi2 ne...terutama nya one of my frens yg pndai ne dya dpt 7A 3B oo..huuu n my bestfrens plak dpt 5A..hmmm tp dya x puas hti  ne sbb target dya x kesmpaian ne...tp pa blh bt kn...huuu..me?? i didn't check my result through sms coz x ska mnggu ne klu gn sms maw jga yg d tngn 2 slip kptusan...hehe bru lh tepat...ok2 bnyk2 sdh kwn2 yg dpt result drg n its my turn to take it...wowww.so2 nervous when my turn to get it...well when its my turn i was so dissapointed when my class teacher said that i cannot have my slip coz i have not return 2 of my text book that i borrow...i thought that book is not going to be return again...but i still can see my result even though i cannot take it..hmmm well when i see my slip....heee i only count how muCh A that i get...haha and im so heppy for my result...wlau pn trpksa plng blik ambik bku tp mc heppy jga ne...so many friends and family texting and calling me to ask my result but i did not tell thm how much A i got..only tell them yg smua nya kredit...heeee biar lh rahsia bha...hehe tpii last2 trpksa bgtaw jga lh sbb kna pksa kn...huuu so heppy bout it....sya pnya addm3 pn yg x prnh2 lulus blh jga bha pg B...hehe sngt2 struggle for that subject coz dont want to dissapoint my fav teacher >mr. martin<...hehe...and also my chemistry...have high expectation for that subjct to get an A on it....struggling for that subject too coz never got A on tht subject...and finnaly chem sya A jga wlaupn A- jak lh...huuu tpi heppy jga ne...hehe..and sngt2 hepy my english subject dpt jga merasa gred A ne...spnjang exam UPSR n PMR grd sya msti B jak wlaupn dlm stiap percubaan blh dpt A ne...heee akhirnya x sia2 usaha ku...hehe...hmmmm heppy jga lh for my result ne n hope  my family is proud of me... n im hoping too that i can continue my study in a better place....THANKS GOD! ^^

Saturday 12 March 2011

love dancing so much!!!!

wowww its been a while that i didn't post anything on my blog...heeee well theres nothing to talk about...but really have to tell u guys about this one...i really2 want to take dancing lesson but dont know where to go...coz i dont know where place that recomend a dancing lesson in kaybe..and never heard it before...actually i hve learn  a few type of traditional dance in my kampung but still i want to learn more ON traditional dance...coz its really fun...hmmm the reason for me to talk about this topic is because my lil sis went to smk narinang to take the traditional dance lesson there..that held by all school in kaybe maybe..im not really sure....all the student that participate in this activity had learn 8 types of traditional dance that really popular in sabah...and its making me jealous when seeing all the students learning this 8 traditional dance that taught by the dance teacher from smk narinang ...huuuuu...if only i can join theM.... :( what a frustrated moment for me...hmmmm im kinda sad for that.....ermmm  i've told my mumy that i want to take a dancing lesson and she kinda agree with it but dont know where i can go to take the class...so i hope that she can find a dancing class for me so tht i will not be bored staying at home all the day long...im praying so she will find one for me...and i surrendEr this to GOD<3!!


 PLEASE LET ME HAVE THIS LESSON...REALLY2 WANT THIS SO BAD.....<3

Saturday 5 March 2011

spm!!!!!

huuuuu spm result is going to come out soon....and its really making me nervous...hmmm have i done the best  answering all the question in every single subject thaat i take???this question  always playng in my mind!! and i dont know how to answer it coz the answer is depends on the result that u will have soon!! i dont like the feeling that i feel right now coz its make me sick!!!really hate this...its not like the other exm that we take in school coz this exam will determine the next chapter of our life...its making me more nervous when talking about it...well i have to face it coz watever happen the result will be coming out....arghhhhh!!!!!this is  really making me sick!!!!!heeeee....but will face it with confident, patience and brave heart!!!! coz it was very important things to do while facing this kind of situation...and dont forget to pray to god about this...coz HE will always help u to face every single situation that u will have to face in life!!heeee... 
                        face it with smile and u should too!!
hmmm tomorow will go to church and teach the kid of 7 years old...and i cannot wait for that....its make me happy when i see them and make my worriedness about spm result diseappear for a minute ^^...like to watch all the character of each kid that i will teach...heee they always make me smile but sometimes they naughtiness can make u feel angry but they still kid and dont know much...sooo need to be patiEnce with them...cant wait to see them!!...ermmm i think thats all i want to share for today...hepy sunday everyone <3!!! GBU (^_^)

still breathing in this world..

theres nothing interesting for today...but still gratefuul coz im still breathing in this world...thank you god <3!!i hope i will live longer in this world....hehe..hmmmm today i didn't wake up early...last night i cant sleep coz i got headache...but luckily i have the panadol to release the pain...maybe crying is not a good thing to do when u facing many problm!! coz it will only bring pain to urself...so dont try this to urself....hehe just kidding!!when u want to cry just cry but dont overdoing it coz it can harm urself!! heee...k this morning>>> awake by my mom phone call...really hate when something disturb me while im sleeping..no one ever like to be disturb while sleeping!! but all i can do is pick up the phone coz if not u may lose something that really important for u to know or maybe not :P....hmmm well my mom phone call is about asking me if i want to join her go to kk??? and of course i want to go...for what???hmmm maybe to get rid of my boredness staying at home all the day long.....so i got up and start to do all the housework that i need to finish before taking my shower....after finishing my work..i took my shower and got ready coz my dad is going to pick me up and take me to my mother office...we go to kk following one of my mom colleague....even though i went to kk but it still not fun coz we go there to take care of my mom insurance and not taking me to go shoping...huuu so frustrated by that..hmmm but not really coz we had stop by at a clothes store..and there i buy a short pants that really catch my eye..heeee so even though we go to kk to take care of my mom insurance things i still didn't come home with an empty hand....hehe so glad with that!! we arrived in kb at 3.15pm!! at kb my mom and me stop by at one of my favourite saloon in kb that is the JELITA SALLOON!! i have gone to the sallon since i was...hmmm maybe two years old ....so young right??? hee...well we go there to trim my curl hair coz my mom said tht my hair will not grow healthy if i didn't trim it..well i did it as she ask me to do it..need to obey the queen when she ask u to do it...huuu...well still love my hair even though it was a bit shorter than before triming it....after got my hair done we go buy a curler for my hair and go home...
i  get myself ready coz tonight need to go to church service for pmm..and the students that staying at the hostel of smk tambulion also joining us....andd what a wowwer!!! there r so many of them...dont forgt to mention that i was bless by the preach that the pastor told us tonight that iis about "HOW NOT TO LOSE UR SANCTITY" really bless with it...well all the story will have the end and my story for today also will end now and will be continue soon..heeee....really need some sleep and rest coz i was so tired today...k for all the reader hope u like  my story for today even though its not that interesting...but still want to share it with u and make my boredness dissapear for a while...heee...
thanx for reading <3 !
GOD BLESS U GUYS <3 !!!

Friday 4 March 2011

annoying!!!!!!

i have never mention that i am a perfect person and never mention who imperfect!!!!u ask me to think??did u think before typing words on ur blog?? did u remember who start the fire??...come on lh!!never mention about SUPERDEVIL  too...its u that want to call ur self that....i mntion about it all the time coz i care for what had happen and still want it to be ok!! hmmm never ask u to read all that i post in my facebook!! and FYI theres nothing bad that i talk about u in my blog!!! ok u want aLl of this to stop???ok fine!!!! it will be stop!!! GOD WILL ALWAYS BLESS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday 3 March 2011

get through this with patience !

its getting worse and worser!!!!why???hmmm maybe i didn't stop mentioning about it...well how am i going to stop  if my brain dont want to stop thinking about that problm....its not just me that dont want to stop but its her too..is it wrong when im expressing my feeling through this blog?? i never give any feedback of ur story!!just keep my self calm and take it with a big smile even though its really painfull to swallow when reading ur blog...cant u do the same way i did???or maybe its u that dont want to stop...like u want to blame me for what had happen dear! ok fine if they didn't talk behind my back...so thanx for doing that really2 appreciate it!...but what is this >>>stop talking rubbish????<<<its not a rubbish lh dear its reality!! well its really going to ruin the relationship we have now....day by day reading ur blog just making my heart hurt...is it u writing the blog or someone else...i dont know u anymore..we grow up together but like i never know u for all this years....this really make me sad : (...i always think how to make this stop and just be ok again...but i dont know what to do?....always pray to god so that all of this will have the end of it but like it will never going to stop...maybe crying is not the way to solve this problm but what can i do my tear keep coming out from my eyes when thinking about this....hmmm i really have to calm my self now! <3...thats all i want to share with all of u guys<3!!have a blessing night <3 ! 


JUST WANT TO SHARE A SWEET MEMORY <3 <3!!

Wednesday 2 March 2011

fuhhhh!!!!!

why is this hapenning to me...im so tired with all of this problem and i really dont like it....why meeeee?????fuhhhhhhhhhh....my problm with my cousin also not ok yet...im still not talking with them...arghhhhh.....so stresss....im really dissapointed with them...i really think now they really hate me and talking about my badness behind my back...hmmm well FYI i dont care what u guys want to say about me....hmmmmm enough with my cousin...now my problem with my bf....upssss actualy he is already my ex now...im really sad with that but what can i do...i really dont want any official relationship right now..im not ready for that...i think im too young for that...hmmm really???haha...well my reason is i dont want any relationship with any guy right now bcoz i want to focus on myself and my family...i want to have a good grip of me so that i can do the same to someone i love too...not only loving him but to understand him better....well when we broke up i told him not to contact me for awhile so we could calm ourself ...i told him too that when things got ok im the one will contact him....sooo  he did not contact me as i ask him not to..then i was suprise that he is the one who contact me first after a few days...mmmm maybe he miss me and really want to talk about .the relationship...i think he really love me and dont want to let me go...what a nice guy right??im such a  bad girlfriend....hehe well not really..i treat him really2 good...hehe (perasan jak 2 tpi btul jga lh : P)...well we have discuss about it but not all of it lh...just a little bit of the problm...well we stick to the relationship we have right now that is just a friend..even though that he want the relationship to be more than friend....huuuuuuu so sad right???....well all i can do now is say sorry to him coz im really not ready in tht kind of thing..hmmm its settle with my ex....and im really heppy with that....sooo relief when my problm with my ex is ok....huuuuuu...but now come another problm that i really2 dislike...wowww and this is the first time i face a problm like this...arghhhhhh...dont know what to think right now....im so mess up....ermmm the story begin like this.....................at 5.50 pm today...i got a phone call from a guy that always contacting me....well i accept the phone call and im so shock that his GIRlFRIEND was the one who called me using his phone...and im so suprise by that...and i really dont know what to say when she ask me many question...this is so confusing me...she ask me about the msgge that the guy always send to me...so stressing me when she ask me about that...huuuuuu i feel so guilty right now....after i told her what kind of messge that we talk about she tell me that theres no need to worry and i can sms him again if i want to becoz he is single..oooo my god!!!then she say thanx and hang up the phone..i dont want to mke their relationship like that...i dont like to ruin other people relationship.....well i dont like this guy i treat him just like my other friends and i consider him as my brother...theres nothing going on between me and him...it just a friend and nothng more than that....why did i always reply his messge....if i didn't reply it maybe this problm will never bother me... im really worry about their relationship!!!!i hope they will be together again...i dont want becoz of me their relationship will be ovr...oooo noo!!!!arghhhhhhhhh dont like that.....now i really need to apology to her...its not totally my fault actualy...if her bf did not sms me or calling me this problm will never comes out...its always him that contact me first and sometimes im really bored with him and i will just ignore him.....hmmmmmmm im really sorry for what had happen....i hope that she will understnd this situation...i dont want her to judge me or hate me for this...i hope she will accept my apology....
GOD PLEASE HELP ME TO GET THROUGH THIS SITUATION...THERES NOTHING I CAN DO OTHER THAN PRAYING TO YOU.... IM PRAYING FOR THEIR RELATIONSHIP TO BE OK AGAIN TOO <3<3!!!